Chapter From My Daughter’s New Book

This is going to be the cutest story when it’s done, #1 Best Seller…

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        “Janey’s Escape” By Paige Fritz

My 14-year-old daughter Paige is writing a book. This is a small tidbit of what she’s written. I think this is going to turn out awesome once it’s done.

Janey would tell me she has wings and that one day she would fly far far away. She told me this so many times that I believed she did have wings. I wanted Janey to show me her wings so I begged and cried because she would say,
“Do you want my wings to break?”
“No but, I want to see them.”
“Do you want your own wings?”
“Yes” I hiccuped.
“Close your eyes” she sounded so distant and full of sorrow
“But, I want my wings” I looked at her. Her eyes were closed she looked so peaceful and happy and like she was drifting away from me. So I closed my eyes.
“Think about flying. Imagine you’re above the world staring down at the ocean with the waves slapping the shore with the seagulls flying above the beach screaming at each other.”
So I did.
I was above the beach breathing in the salt water. I felt like I was there with the seagulls watching them scream at each other and fly down to the water and scoop up a catch that was 50% efficient.

That’s an impossible feeling. Feeling so close but, being so far away. I opened my eyes and Janey was watching me with the hint of a smile playing on her lips.
“That’s where you go when you close your eyes. Isn’t it?”
“Yes and now I share that place with you.”
This was the birth of a new sisterly relationship and we both knew it and a shadow of worry ghosted its way onto Janey’s face but, was quickly shoved in a box and replaced with joy that wasn’t all the way there. Janey got up and walked to her room. She came back a bit later in a new outfit and put a blood-red finger to her lips, walked to my double doors blew me a kiss and shimmied down my tree. When she came back it felt like years had passed. She laid down with me she smelt faintly like sour apple cider.

“Where’d you go?”
“To hang out with friends”
“What did you guys do?”
She leaned in close to my ear and whispered
“I’ll show you when you’re older”
“Pinky Promise?  I put up my pinky and she giggled and put hers up too and said in a very serious tone with a very un-serious smile placed on her lips
“Alice I pinky promise” and laid down with me her flaming brown hair fanning around her head. She looked like the most beautiful girl in the world and I knew one day I would be just like her. I had to be. I covered us both up and drifted away to a place that dragons mermaids fairies lived among each other along with talking cats and bunnies and you never grew old and nothing is impossible. Never land and Wonderland combined into one magical place where dreams come true. Where the impossible is possible, Dreamland.

No, this picture below is not of my daughter, Lol…

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“Janey’s Escape” By Paige Fritz

Tell us what you think so far! I think she’s done a great job at only 14 years old…

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This is a very sad story!!

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I normally like to keep my post upbeat and positive. If I am going to write honestly than I need to tell you the truth about the last time I cried. I really don’t cry very often, sometimes I wonder if my crier is broken. There are definite situations I have encountered that I should be crying about but I can’t. This one for obvious reasons did get me going several different times; I did manage to keep it together most of the time by looking at the big picture and not the here and now.

In early December I received a call from my Mother In-law asking if Eric was home from work yet, he wasn’t. She completely lost it and informed me that my 31 year old brother in law Andy was dead. We are all from Michigan but a few years ago Andy moved to West Virginia for work. He was single and lived in an apartment down there by himself. He did come up to hang out and visit us in Michigan one to two weekends a month though.

I will give you a little history, a month and a half before his death he wasn’t feeling well so he went to the doctors to find out what was wrong with him. He found out he had a Liver Disease. After a week in the hospital and Outpatient Treatment he was expected to get better and recover from this. He came home to Michigan for Thanksgiving and his skin and eyes were greenish yellow, he looked awful. He had scheduled an appointment with a bigger Liver Clinic (in Pennsylvania) for the following Monday since the rinky dink Doctor’s Office he was currently going to wasn’t helping him. He went to his first appointment on that Monday; they ordered Blood Work and scheduled him a follow up appointment. He died less than a week later on Sunday, he was found on Monday by the police.

His work was worried about him because they couldn’t get a hold of him so they sent the Police to his apartment to check on him. The Police found him dead in his bed. As of February 15, 2015 we are still waiting for the Autopsy results for the cause of death. The stupid thing is you could look at him and tell he was definitely sick, what is the hold up here. Without the completed Autopsy there is no Death Certificate, with no Death Certificate I am having a hard time taking care of his financial matters (I am in charge of his Estate).

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Like I have said numerous times in other Post;

I try to look at the positive in every situation and make the best of everything life throws my way. I have cried several times about Andy being gone but each time I am able to pull myself together by remembering that not only does “Everything Happen for a Reason” , he is in Heaven in a better more peaceful place.

One of the biggest positive things that have happened directly related to Andy’s death is how close we have become with Eric’s parents. I am sitting here writing this on the couch of their cabin up north, we all came up here as a family for the second time in the last two months. In the last 8 years we have never been on a family vacation with them. We also talk to them almost every day and see them about 1 time a week. I love hanging out with them and can’t believe it took 8 years and Andy’s death to bring us together. But I am glad it did.

My mother in law Val and I have a lot more in common that we ever knew.

She is an avid sewer and ‘crafter’ like me. We both love going to Auctions (we went twice this weekend) and had a blast. They enjoy my kids and my kids love hanging out with them. All in all, it is a blessing in disguise. I am just sorry it had to all start because of the death of someone as great as Andy. He is missed greatly.

When was the last time you cried? Was it over something silly or serious? Share your thoughts in the comments below!

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Hellbilly Mama’s Favorite Quote- 30 Day Blog Challenge

 I’m really living on the edge this weekend!

I had to switch things around a little bit for the Blog Challenge. I hope you don’t mind (sorry about your luck)! We are headed Up North so I had to switch a couple of the days challenges around.

I am really gonna throw you for a loop and add two quotes that I love. One of them is fun and one is serious.Motto-to-live-by

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and and screaming, “WOO HOO, what a Ride!”

This one I actually have the sign hanging on my wall. I love it. No, it doesn’t mean I don’t care about or take care of myself! It just means I like to enjoy myself in everything I do. You have to find the good and fun in everything which leads me to my next favorite quote.

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“Someday everything will make perfect sense, so, for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON”

I have been through many struggles in my life. Some of them brought on by myself, read about one of the funny ones here The Hammock Incident- Greatest Hellbilly Fail!!

I CHOOSE to not let anything bring me down.

I use this quote at least a few times a week to myself, my kids and my friends. I truly do believe there is a greater purpose for all of us. God knows what he is doing. We may not see it today or even tomorrow, but eventually the reason will come forward. You don’t always know what it is. You have to pay attention, stay positive and keep looking for it.

There are times you won’t like the reason, but it’s not up to us to decide what is our fate. We certainly have choices in life, always try and make the most positive choice. But there are somethings left out of our control. You just have to roll with them and not let them define you. Let everything in life make you a better person somehow someway. It’s up to you to figure out how.

That’s my two cents! What is yours? Tell me below in the comments your favorite quote or a follow up to my thoughts on life.

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Day 4- Earliest Childhood Memory– 30 Day Blog Challenge

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